“Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire. -Unknown
I don’t know how this is happening, but it is. I don’t know why I ever deserved this opportunity, but for some reason, it was given to me. I know it is going to be hard. The panic is starting to set in. But every voice in my head is screaming to take a leap of faith and go for it. The universe has lead us this far, there is no way that this isn’t the path we are supposed to be taking.
Never in my life would I have imagined I would be where I am at 25. And that is something I have to keep reminding myself. I am only 25. Sometimes, I feel like I have lived a hundred years. But I am barely into the second quarter of my life. I still have so much more life ahead of me. While I have had to face many challenges at a very young age, I wouldn't be where I am today without those experiences. To be honest, we still face rough times, and we aren't anywhere near perfect; we never claim to be. But I think it is all about changing your perspective. On days when we feel money is tight, I think about where we were just two years ago. Those were the days we could only afford to buy a four pack of toilet paper at a time. Now, we can buy the Costco pack. Those were the days we scraped together every cent we had to buy dinner. We haven't had to do that in quite a while. Those were the days I prayed my car would start in the mornings before work. A month ago we were able to purchase a brand new car. Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought that would be a possibility. While we still have our financial struggles, I am amazed just how far we have come in two years. Of course there are days that I wish I could have more control in my life. There are still days when I am beyond stressed and I don't know how I will fit everything into my day. But these are the times that make everything worth it. While I am proving everyone who doubted me wrong, these moments allow me to prove to myself that I can do it.
We were forced to move our move to the farm up by a month. As stressful as it seemed, the last twenty-four hour just reassured us that we are doing the right thing. Everything just fell into place. As much as I hate to leave all of our friends and family behind, I can't wait to start this journey with my husband.